Friday, January 13, 2006
yesterday was FANTASTIC.i think i know why i am starting to hate myself and all.
In MI,i dont belong to me.Somehow,i feel restricted.I dont behave like how i behave when i was in st nicks.
Yesterday,i crashed tp.I felt so happy.I dont know how to express the difference but there is really this BIG HUGE GAP.
Oh wells.
Please let everything be okay.
I know i am the result of some people unhappiness but i dont know how to go about salvaging it.I hate myself for being selfish.Teach me how to look at you in the face.I only feel guilty again.
Fuck.
See if i am st nicks,all these damn things wont happen.
I gonna take one step at a time.
I miss everything.
Seriously yesterday was the first time the atmosphere that was so familiar resurfaced.
FREAK.
Its not really only 6 weeks.